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Name: Britt
Country: United States
State: Nebraska
Birthday: 6/25/1988
Gender: Female
Interests: Photography, Music (The decemberists, Built to spill, cursive, conor oberst, West Connection, Sorry about dresdan, The Faint, The Blood Brothers, Neutral milk hotel, the new pornographers, The Apples in stereo, the appleseed cast, armor for sleep, The gossip, Modest Mouse, Beck, David Bowie, Ani Difranco, ect) Indie films, ect.
Expertise: Omaha. Music. Caring. Listening. Critiqueing. photography. Being hip and what not. Oh yeah, I am a good cryer. ha. <3 to everyone.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Education/Research
Message: message meEmail: email me
AIM:  Xoringmaster17oX
Member Since:
4/21/2003
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| Take a long drive with me, on california one. -- the decemberists.
yeah. great band. YOU BETTER NOT SAY OTHERWISE!
<3
I want a job at the record shop.
but more importantly, I'm feeling a bit better, still not 100% better, but still. you know. time fixes things, right?
I sure hope so.
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| Dani
She's craving intangible feelings and
living the impossible dream;
aching nights are drowned in the stupor of physical contact
and she'll sell her soul for just one more four-letter word,
for just one irreversible sentence.
-- Dani of the poetry board | | |
| this is what has been happening lately:
Sunday night ashley said that ben was giong to break up with me so i cried all night. Justin picked me up monday morning and then ben attempted to break up with me. I made some sad faces and said a few words and he caved and said to nevermind and that he was sorry. but now he is ignoring me. And ashley says it is because he is 'dating me as sympathy'. how can she say these things to me? doesn't she realize that i love ben, and it hurts really bad? I keep meaning to talk to him about it but i get too nervous, so i just emailed him, and asked him email me back when he got it so i could ask him. I'm scared to here the truth. If its true what ashley said I'm going to break down.
ohy eah i cut my arm but its not bad. and they took my xacto away. fxckers.
I got introuble for talking to my BIO mom. its not fair, i miss her, i should be allowed to talk to her. am i wrong here?
why is it that sometimes i just want to die so badly. no joke. not like suicide, but like an accident. sometimes i just wish i would stop breathing or get hit by a truck.
alas, i'm crying. heh. oh well, that's how life goes. | | |
| Ash emailed me and we are talking again. not sure for how long though.
you see, when I read her email i was like "oh, cool." and called her and she wasnt home, so i was like..hmm...I'm bored, call ben, ... She was at bens house, in his room, on his bed, watching a movie with him. and as you guys know ben has kissed ashley in front of me, so imagine what they do when I'm not around, but I didnt even think of that possibility until my mom, my friend don, AND my friend justin all thought it. I was like "they wouldnt do that..." and everyone just kept going on and on about how they WOULD and they COULD and how I should just split with both of them and find a new best friend and a new boyfriend. But I love ben, and I love ashley, I am just afraid that ASHLEY AND BEN love eachother in a non-platonic way now. God. I wish highschool could be easier. I'm NICE to people IRL. I really am. And i get screwed over so often, so lets pray that nothing happened, please. everyone help me out here, because otherwise I might have a breakdown.
yeah.
it sucks, but thats life.
--brittany | | |
| I emailed ashley, this is what I sent (C+Ped right out of the email):
I want you to think of all the memories we have together, ashley.
Now I want you to think about the memories we're missing out on.
Is it worth it?
Maybe you and I have different Ideas on what a 'best friend' is.
But either way, ash, I know you don't think this is how it is supposed to be.
so when you are done and ready to apoligize or at the very least explain to me
what I did, call me, email me, talk to me.
ps.
I have my cell phone fixed, but I'm not sure what the number is.
sorry =(.
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yeah, I think she is ignoring it, or hasnt read it. I don't know, but I do know that ben thinks we are going to be going out for a long time. It makes me happy. Because he mentioned how he fell asleep while making out with his last GF and how it didnt realyl hurt him when they broke up. and then he mentioned us getting a job together this summer, and he told me he loved me, and he wiped away all my tears when i was crying because of ashley on the phone.
she called and DEMANDED he send me home so she could come over. DEMANDED. I'll c+p my previous rant later because I don't want to type it all out. Just know that i feel like I've gotten dumped by ashley. and it hurts. But everytime she tries to drive me and ben apart she just gets us closer, so she should really just open her eyes and LOOK at what she is doing.
god, help me.
--britt | | |
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